It's been a while since I've posted. things are overall pretty good. Life has had its ups and downs. I'll work on posting more, I promise (:

When trust is broken between two people what do you do? when you thought highly enough of them to not pull such sick and piggish bullshit what do you do? What do you do when an ex who you just wanted closure with and to just talk forces themselves on you and luckily their buddy renting the hotel room walks in so you can leave? Thank god he came back there. I dont know where I'd be.

I hate you. Now you'll never hear from me again. I'm too much of a loving trusting person for this.

Stay Positive.

Today was a good day. I woke up next to the most gorgeous face this morning...and my heart is still beating. Long night talks and beers. Had a really in depth conversation as well.

A lot of people ask me how I remain so intimate with a friend after this length of time. It's simple. When you care about someone enough all the flaws don't matter. What they do doesn't matter. At the end of the day, me loving someone down to the core is completely enough. Truth is, we are two damaged and torn souls from our past. I wish more people would understand the type of friendship we do have.

We talked about broken hearts, what we like in a person, how we've made mistakes, what our beliefs are.

Things are getting so much better.

wow. just wow.

Life is back to normal. Brother moved back home, still have the boy in my life, and I had an interview this week.

Why do I still feel so alone and miserable randomly at times? I have so much more going for me than I did these past few years. I don't understand why I'm so down.

I let people get to me so easily.