Valentines Day is such a big day. Why do you think so? I honestly think everyday should be filled with all kinds of love. Everyone should always appreciate each other, appreciate what they have.
My day began nicely. I woke up next to him again. I awaited for his message around midnight and didn't want to bother reaching out to him first..(I didnt want to look clingy)
I don't know where this is leading so I'm scared. He's a great fit for me. A part of me really wonders if some of the things I've heard are true, if my heart getting invested in this is a bad idea. I've heard from someone that he cheats and has already broken a few hearts. I hope that's not the case. He has such a kind aura to him. I know for a fact doesn't have STDs (I would of gotten something by now and that was one of the things I heard) and I just hope that this attachment doesn't go any further right yet. I need my heart to slow down. To protect myself from getting crushed again. I didn't expect to get attached again to him anytime soon. It just happened. After the laughing and the cuddling. Being understood for once while both of us seem to be in search of something. Being acknowledged felt amazing, being called sexy when I undressed myself, having my hands clasped with his so tightly. So much passion. He has no Idea what I'm feeling and I don't know how to tell him. I'm just going to keep on the down-low and go day by day I suppose. You could say its lust. I completely am lusting this man. There however is more to it than just the sex.
Its been an interesting week. My aunt finally got a house bought and signed, my mother is currently helping her pack for her new home. I also got disowned by my brother. I guess my honesty about his lifestyle was just too much to handle. I'm not judgmental. I was just telling him how I saw it. It is what it is. I am a good person. I care a lot about him. Maybe someday he will see.
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