This blog is for my own personal life rants. I'm a 20 year old female and live in the state of Maine. I love my cat Zombie, and overall have some pretty amazing people in my life. I honestly have not made a blog in years, or actually kept up blogging in it. I figured that with all of the current struggles that I have been going through, writing out all of my daily thoughts would be a great Idea. Writing has always been a therapeutic thing for me. I describe my world way better through writing. I always have.
I'm at a point in my life where I wonder if I'll ever find that special person I'm meant to be with. Its all I ever wanted since I was a small child. I've wished for it my whole life, But alas I seem to find the wrong type of men who are overly manipulative and controlling, ones who will fuck you and lose complete interest, or the ones who just don't have enough emotion for the flame to stay lit. Maybe it was my upbringing. My father the controlling abusive man must of had a higher influence on my subconscious level than I thought. I'll get in depth with my current and past relationship problems but I think that is a fair enough introduction about that part of my life for now.
I'm also looking at what I'm going to do to get my mental health career in check. I want to go for my MHRT certification, but I have such high anxiety level that full time college is completely impossible. I have decided to go searching for a local certificate program so I can directly aim towards my goal. What is my goal you may ask? I want to be a help to children and young adults with emotional issues or even suicidal tenancies or self mutilation problems. I had some problems when I was younger and to let someone know that they will be okay in the long run would be a blessing. Simply because I am living proof, a survivor. I never thought I was going to be okay.
I'm at a point in my life where I wonder if I'll ever find that special person I'm meant to be with. Its all I ever wanted since I was a small child. I've wished for it my whole life, But alas I seem to find the wrong type of men who are overly manipulative and controlling, ones who will fuck you and lose complete interest, or the ones who just don't have enough emotion for the flame to stay lit. Maybe it was my upbringing. My father the controlling abusive man must of had a higher influence on my subconscious level than I thought. I'll get in depth with my current and past relationship problems but I think that is a fair enough introduction about that part of my life for now.
I'm also looking at what I'm going to do to get my mental health career in check. I want to go for my MHRT certification, but I have such high anxiety level that full time college is completely impossible. I have decided to go searching for a local certificate program so I can directly aim towards my goal. What is my goal you may ask? I want to be a help to children and young adults with emotional issues or even suicidal tenancies or self mutilation problems. I had some problems when I was younger and to let someone know that they will be okay in the long run would be a blessing. Simply because I am living proof, a survivor. I never thought I was going to be okay.
This is a huge welcome from me to you to my blog.
Feel free to sit back and enjoy this crazy chaos I call my own.
Zombie. My pride and joy. I'm a proud cat lady.
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