Glass Window.

"I once looked through a glass window, with a shallow breath and a feeling no one could ever explain taking over me, I took a look at the reflection I saw and stared at it for many minutes. little did I know...I had yet to find out who this person staring back at me really was."


This is the first time I've been home all week. I was with my best friend at her house the whole time doing girl things. This included late night talks, coffee time first in the morning, playing games, and hanging out with her son. I've known her since I was 5 years old and we've always been in each others lives. She means the complete world to me. I have had my times of being a bad friend but no matter what has been said and done, she accepts me for who I am as a whole person. There aren't too many friends out there like that who I have known or met.


I have managed to start using my deviant art for the first time in over a year. I plan to continue doing my art again. I miss it. It was a big part of my world at one point.


Anyways...Smoking for the first time in a month was a bad idea. I'm more of a social smoker and will smoke if i'm in a social situation and have the opportunity to do so. That is what made me cave. My best friend and two of our other male friends came over to her place for a while, so we all just hanging out. I love smoking with others. So i'm sitting here and I cant even tell you how badly I want a cigarette right now. I was smoke free since early December...WHY DID I DO THAT TO MYSELF?! Well I suppose if at first you don't succeed, try try again.


Here I am, it's 10:41 at night and I have yet to pass out.


I'll wake up to my mother and step dad with a fresh pot of coffee hopefully. (I'm a horrid caffeine addict. Don't ever let me go more than a day without it. Honestly, even a day without coffee would drive me insane!)


Goodnight World.